My scan results are in. And I don’t know what to say other than I feel deflated.
My oncologist called me earlier this week. (He calls me now rather than waiting for my next appointment, which means I get the results faster.) And the best way I can think to describe them is that they are neutral.
The cancerous nodes in my chest have in some cases shrunk, and some have stayed the same, but some have grown. The same with my abdomen. (Those abdomen ones had newly popped up as teeny blips on my last scan in Feb – after starting my new treatment.)
They’re all still small, but small and growing is still growing. And hearing that some of the areas are still growing, despite the form of chemo I’m on, isn’t easy for me.
So, what does this mean? Well, I made the decision before the scan that, barring something crazy, I wanted to stay on this treatment for a while longer, and my oncologist agrees with me. So we’re moving to 8 week scans to keep an eye on everything. And now I have a week or so to come up with questions, collect my thoughts, and do some research on this growing situation. Then I’ll get to sit down and chat it through with my oncologist once he’s had a chance to think about it too. But my immediate thought is we need to see if we can find out why things are growing.
This is where I am right now, feeling deflated but not defeated.